Yesterday, I had to do the Lord’s prayer MANY times in order to stay on course. Particularly the “lead us not into temptation” piece. There were
so too many things that I wanted to throw in the towel for and devour. Some of those temptations were (but aren’t limited to): Girl Scout Cookies, Cheddar and Sour Cream Chips, Mike & Ikes, Rice, General Tso’s Chicken, Shrimp Tempura, Green Banana Porridge, Natural Cheetos, and Fruit Snacks. But I am glad to report, I was on my best behavior! Instead, I ate a pear, 2 bananas, a plum, and scrambled eggs.
As I looked at myself in the mirror, I began thinking about how and why I make the food choices that I make. I am really feeling the freedom in choosing what I want to eat. I am determined not to live life as a compulsive consumer, but to treat every decision as a liberated choice. If I am eating healthily, it is because I want to empower my body to be the best version of itself. If I choose to indulge, I am choosing to enjoy the treat while feeling completely in control over that decision.
I’m pretty sure that there will be a moment or moments where I will fail, but this will always be my goal. I can never look back after this. Now that I’ve been given this particular diagnosis, I am responsible to myself and to my family for how I care for myself.
Our job isn’t to be or to strive for perfection. Just do the best you can.